Here it was 72 hours before my wedding and I was having the biggest melt down of my week. This meltdown varied from the ones a toddler would have that I didn't make a massive scene but internally it felt the same. Tears were shed quietly while I sat in a vehicle with 7 other members of our family. Ironically the melt down had very little to do with the wedding itself and everything to do with my feelings about my weight. If you read my blog long enough you’ll realize that I very much am insecure about my weight. It's a lovely symptom of my PCOS and for lack of a better terms it sucks. I have always been a thin person and this heaviness I carry doesn’t feel like me. In my mind I’m still the cute thin girl who danced in color guard. Not this chubby person who squeezes herself into flowy tops to avoid showing tummy flab. At this point you might wonder what even caused such a meltdown. Which to be honest is fair. Why the heck would I be crying and emotional in the middle of a national park at 10 am? Every picture I took with my fiancé made me look like a beluga whale. It just didn’t look like me. I don’t feel like I’m that heavy person who is reflected in the photo. I just wanted to feel beautiful for my wedding. Unfortunately, I felt anything but that. Have you ever had one of these moments? What do you do to avoid the emotional outpouring that sometimes comes up?
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Exactly one week before the wedding my sister and personal attendant thought would be perfect for a bachelorette party! They were 100% correct. Being such a far distance and planning any type of party is a complicated task but my favorite ladies rallied and we had a wonderful time. Here are some things I learned about having a bachelorette party in North Dakota:
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AuthorChelsea is a 28 year old operations manager. A Tennessee native she currently lives in the Peace Garden State of North Dakota. Chelsea and her husband are the loving parents of their two little dogs & a cat. In her free time she loves reading, listening to podcasts, and camping. Archives |